Today I was having one of my occasional bad viola days - nothing sounded right, I couldn't play fast or slow, my brain refused to read music. So much despair! I slogged through all the scales and drills and studies and other tasks I'd laid out for myself, but no use. It was all so bad I started thinking about skipping rehearsal tomorrow night - the thought of two hours of public embarrassment, making stupid mistakes, and having to deal with my stand partner (more about that some other time) was too much to bear.
And then right at the end, pretty much by accident, something I've been working like a madwoman on (and not getting anywhere with) started sounding ok. Yay. Thank you, godz.