I ran again this morning, another very few miles in the dark, in the rain. I thought I was going much faster than yesterday, but my watch said otherwise. It was not particularly fun, but doing it is better than not doing it, I think. If I do survive this, I will be better off for having kept up the running.
Running used to take me out of myself. It does not do that anymore. One reason I put so much value on viola lessons is that when it's good, it takes me right out of myself - it's just music and how to make it happen. Unfortunately, times like that are rare. But when they happen, I am so grateful. I wish I could find a way to get out of myself and stay there.